well, I don't know how well I've been doing in the weightloss department seeing as I'm up. but i learned something; I learned what the worst sound in the world is. I've joined a TOPS group, that's "Taking Off Pounds Sensably" (or however you spell that) and when we go through the gains and losses if there's a loss we applaud and if there's a gain we all say "We're glad you're here" that. is. the. worst. sound. in. the. world.

there is nothing like hearing applause for something you did right, but when you mess up and there's so much sympathy out of everyone it's just awful!

part of the TOPS pledge is "even tho I overeat in private, my excess pounds are there for all the world to see" (some poetic licence has been taken) and it's true! it's a scary thought that even tho you thought you were doing all this "sneaky eating" people still see you for who/what you are. I hate that. it's a scary thought for me.

DH is working weekends now which is both good and bad for me, but I have decided that I am going to do other things in secret. there's no judgement, there's no one to look down their noses at me so I am going to exersize in secret. why not? if my excess poundage is there for everyone to see, why couldn't the loss be there too? I'm going scrapbooking tonight so I won't have time to do it later, so I'm not going to put off until later what I can do right now.

after Lunch I'm going to shovel the driveway. it's a great way to get exersize and seeing as we have never seen our driveway it might be nice :D that's my plan so far. I'll add more next week if I actually go through with it :D