So on the weightwatchers board, they asked me When do you feel Sexiest? I feel my sexiest when I'm at the mall and I see someone bigger than me. does that seem mean? I know it's not their fault and for all I know they've been losing really good, but when I see someone bigger than me it makes me feel good. like even tho I'm bad they're a lot worse for the wear you know? and it's good to look at skinny people too because I know that one day I'll be like them :D
It's weird to think about because i know that I shouldn't be comparing myself to other people but I'm incredibly competitive by nature. and I'm thinking by saying, i can be thinner than that I am losing weight by merely comparing myself to other people and losing the weight :D
how many times have I heard "you shouldn't try to compare yourself to other people because it's discouraging." and it can be. but my discouragement comes more from when my family isn't losing weight because then I lose my drive. the thought becomes if they aren't losing weight, I don't have to either and that's terrible too because then I put it all back on! my sisters have this problem in droves Phillys (not her real name) has lost it all and put it all back on plus but Shelly (not her real name either) has lost and looks like a frickin' amazon! the long blond hair and the tan and the skinny she looks fantastic! and she's going to the gym and eating better (not oranges and yoghurt) but she looks wonderful! I mean there's no reason why she wouldn't! my mom's lost 10lbs and she's looking and feeling better (dispite her depression making her want to eat more) as for me. I'm working on it. I love losing weight and I want to keep losing weight and now that I'm getting tips from mom's nutritionist I'm able to drink more water and exersize more without killing myself and I feel sexy and I'm losing weight (I hope) I'm hoping the weather gets a little better so I can start using my new skipping rope. :D
My period isn't helping matters. I want to be able to work our and run and my body is going 'we need chocolate' and i'm fighting that for all it's worth trying to feed my body other things that are good for me and I can't. :( it's not helping either that mom wants me to make brownies and other things that aren't good for me. but I'm holding off. in about 20 minutes i can endulge a bit and then in another 2 hours I'll be able to eat something else :D in the good for me department
I got to tell you I feel like all I've done for the past two days is eat and pee.but at least it's good for me right?
i gotta go
*poof*